Personality Traits

I like to think of myself as a selfless person. I spend my money on others when possible, I devote my time to others when possible, and most of the time try to take care of everyone else first. At first, it may seem like a bad way to live, but it's really not that bad. It's very rewarding when you have the personality that I do. In fact, it's one of the main reasons that I want to go into medicine... I want to devote my life to making other peoples' lives better.
However, lately there has been one thing that's somewhat altered this fundamental trait of mine: Raena. I am very selfish when it comes to her. I want her here, and I don't like it when she's gone. But I've been thinking... isn't it good to be a little selfish sometimes? I mean, there's only been one person who ever lived that's been completely selfless, and I'm sure not him. It kinda brings a balance to my life, so in a lot of ways it's been good for me.
Lastly, let me say that I don't feel too bad about being selfish about her. Any person who spent five minutes getting to know what a wonderful and amazing person she is would feel the exact same way. So you see, it's HER fault! :)
I love you, Raena!